As I am writing this, I am sitting at my new apartment in the private residential home in Landau. I am living here for 5 weeks now but still behind me 7 moving boxes pile up, that I have not emptied. This morning I was late for my diagnostic seminar, as I’ve often been late. On my bike ride to the seminar, I violate a lot of traffic rules and mentally curse other drivers for slowing me down. Still almost punctual, I arrive at the seminar room. To my astonishment, the seminar room is still almost empty. I ask, not directed at anyone particular, if the seminar is maybe cancelled for today. They reply that the seminar typically starts at 8:30 am. To myself, I mumble „Good to know“ and check my calendar. The calendar actually says seminar 8:30-9:45 am.
Still, something seems wrong. I check the room. In the back, a lot of rolled maps are hanging from the wall, like in my old geography room back in school. After taking a closer look at the room, I try to check the room number in my calendar entry. I decide it is no point. I don’t know the room number of that particular room, so this information won’t help. I ask again, nobody particular: “Who is the instructor in this seminar?” I get a name that tells me nothing. So I stand up and say: “This is confusing, they have the same seminar in three different rooms directly next to another.” I leave the seminar room, probably to the amusement of some. Some minutes late, I enter the correct seminar room and sit next to a friend. My ThinkPad is not charged, so I can’t follow the slides properly or do the given tasks on my own device.
Right after that, I have my favorite seminar. The topic is communication and media psychology. Even though it is my favorite seminar, I am not as motivated as in the last weeks. Afterward, I get lunch in the canteen and then in the library to get some work done. I organize train tickets for a coming trip to Kiel, but after that, I don’t feel like I have the energy to read texts for my seminars. My Garmin watch reeds a sleep duration of 5:40 h and a sleep score of 71 out of 100. This gives me a good a reason to be tired. Back at home, I get about 2 hours of sleep. Waking up, I feel fantastic. There is nothing really pressing to do and I have a free mind.
In my mind, I go through options of what to do. I decide to read in Stephen R. Coveys „The 7 Habits of Highly Effective People“ about habit 1, namely »Be proactive‹‹. I have been postponing reading into this chapter for quite a while now. Some weeks ago (or rather months), I read into habit 7 „Sharpen the saw“ and into habit 2 „Begin with the End in Mind“. I think I didn’t want to read the chapter earlier because I was afraid of its message. I was afraid of what the chapter might imply, about what I need to change about myself to have a better grip on my life. But I feel like I am ready now. This won’t be easy, but I want to take the first step.
Later, while washing some dishes, I watch a video of a Jim Rohn seminar. His core message is: „If you want a better life, you have to be better.“
I totally believe this to be true. Sometimes I catch myself at wishing some aspects of my life to be better. But this won’t happen all by itself.
If you always do, what you always did, you will always get, what you always got.
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To sum up, I want myself to be more proactive in the future. How do I plan to achieve that? I still have to figure that out. This post will be the first step 🙂
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